I am so bad

I've just eaten fish and it tasted so damn good!!

It was some sushi that my Mum bought me by mistake, she forgot to get the vegetarian one, as I was vegetarian... until about two minutes ago, but I've just sat here and eaten it all, and it was really lovely (and I would have eaten more if I'd had it!)

Some vegetarian I am... chowing down on poor little fishes!

I am going to have to have a serious think about whether I go back to eating meat again or not... I have missed it, and meals here have been awful of late as no-one has been eating meat, just because of me (and I feel guilty about that, I must admit). We were never a family that ate a lot of meat, about three times a week (if I recall correctly), but I do miss sunday dinners, and getting a take away is a nightmare... and also the added expense on the weekly shop (meat for Mum and Dad and veggie stuff for me, and we truly cannot afford to keep doing it!)

I do feel guilty about eating meat, but I don't think that I feel guilty enough... it would make things so much easier if I went back to eating meat... and I really haven't seen any benefits in not eating meat. The weight that I've lost I would have lost anyway as I've also stopped eating white bread products (the abdominal pain they give me isn't funny) something to do with white flour and yeast just does not agree with me, not at all! Meat never really bothered me, to be honest, and I thought that I'd feel better, but I really haven't all I've felt is tired and listless all the time.

I know I sound as if I'm trying to talk myself back into eating it again, and I suppose that I probably am, in a way... it would just make life a whole lot simpler here if I did, and I have missed it, so I suppose that is decision made LOL!