I can't handle Xtianity anymore

I see nothing there for me.

I wish I could see it as others do, but I can't. Regardless of how hard I try all I can see is guilt and fear and sin and evil... and all of the wrong things seem to fall under those headings - things like sex (outside of marriage), homosexuality, masturbation, abortion, having a different faith. All of them to some extent are condemned by Xtianity and I hate that so much. How can a religion proclaim to be about love when it says such hateful things?

I just do not understand what I'm meant to find so appealing about the prospect of millions of innocent people being punished for all eternity in Hell, for things they may or may not even realise were 'sins', by a God that is forever portrayed as the epitome of 'Love'. Because you always roast the ones you love in flames for eternity' don't you?! *sigh*

I'm probably sounding this scornful because I'm tired and disappointed by the views and opinions of a select few individuals at an online forum... but to my mind, any religion that enables and seems to actively encourage such hatred and evil is not the one that this easy-going, pro-choice, pro-LGBTQI rights, pro-freedom of religion pagan/goth is meant to be a part of!

Sometimes I wish I could see Xtianity as most Xtians see it, but mostly I'm just glad to be pagan and be able to live and let live, without the pressure of having to force myself to believe and practice things that are abhorrant to me!