I hate it when people lie to me

And when that person is a potential love interest it hurts even more when they finally admit the truth to your face.

See, I started something with someone online... and they basically used me for their own selfish ends and then dumped me and pretended like nothing happened. I don't think so!!

The part that hurt the most was that it is because of what I look like that they changed their opinion... and I told them it would, and they assured me it wouldn't matter, and then when they saw me everything changed, and although part of me was relieved another part of me was very hurt and also pissed off that I had been used and lied to the whole time!! It's taken me a week to finally get him to admit it, and now he has I feel surprisingly fine... sort of lighter and back to myself. I just needed him to tell the truth and stop feeding me bullshit and lies. I have no hard feelings and have told him that if he is willing to forget the past then so am I. I guess I'm just a forgiving kind of person and he is only 21 and probably still hurting from the break up of his first relationship two months ago. I like the guy and would still like to be his friend... but if not then I have lost nothing, and I can't change my nature and be a total bitch because that is not who I am... once my initial anger has faded I just have to get things back on a even keel again... it's just that I have to have that balance, but then I am a Libra and it shows ROFL!

If nothing else it has made me wary for the future, and also determined that nothing like it will ever happen again... and I'm also damned certain that I will never be suckered into situations that leave me wide open to being used again.

The past is the past, and I'll forgive but not forget. I firmly believe that to forget the past means you are doomed to repeat it, and that is never going to happen again. I do want a man in my life... but not one that is going to treat me like shit, I'm more than capable of treating myself like that and I need no help from anyone else... thank you very much.

As the old saying goes "Fool me once, shame on you... fool me twice, shame on me!"

The mind boggles sometimes!

I knew it would happen, it was just a question of when!

People are already saying crap about the "end times" and "the return of Jesus" just because of the earthquake in Japan! One person even managed to connect three separate events together because they all happened on the 11th of the month (not the same month, and years apart mind you, but "it's not a coincidence!").

The statistical odds of events happening on the same day of the month are at most 31 to 1... there being only a maximum of thirty one days in the longest months. The person failed to mention all of the other disasters that have not happened on the 11th... but only the ones that did! I failed to be impressed by this news... if all earthquakes and/or tsunamis happened only on the 11th of any month, I would start to worry, but to take three individual events and tie them together just because they share the date of the 11th is lunacy (and with the super Moon coming soon, the pun was intended!! LOL).

There are also those that believe that "Japan had it coming" and that "they deserved it for what they did at Pearl Harbour"... and yes, they are for real! That would be like my revelling in something happening to present day Germany for what happened in The Blitz! How damn cruel are people?!

The only thing I will say is that to me it seemed worse for Haiti. Unlike Japan, Haiti is a very poor, third world country and they have had to rely on the rest of the world for help as they were powerless to do anything for themselves... Japan is a first world country and can do as much to help itself as the rest of the world can help it. They have machines and technology that Haiti could never even dream of... but I still wouldn't deny them help just because we were enemies 70 years ago or because they are considered a rich country! I can kind of understand old people thinking like that... for them it was personal and although it was a long time ago some wounds never heal, no matter the time-scale involved - but to be glad over thousands of innocent men, women and children dying and losing everything they possess... who are the inhuman ones there?

Just having to read rubbish like that makes me so tired... sometimes it even makes me embarrassed to be human and share a species with such total arseholes!